THE MAN WHO CAN BE MOVED

Frosh Weeeeeek

(Taken from my phone. Feeling photographer daw. =)))) )

To all froshies out there, WELCOME TO MAPUA! You can now officially call yourselves a true red and gold-blooded Mapuan! :) This batch is so far the largest in terms of student population. Daig pa ang divisoria sa dami ng tao!! :))))

This week was very fun yet stressful. Almost all of my subjects are Majors and some professors started their discussion at the first meeting and we had our first quiz today. Thanks so much for making my first week fun. -,-

Some point though, I was kind of disappointed to some CEGE (CE EnSE CEM GEO GSE) froshies, they did not even finish the orientation. I was there giving bag tags for CSA, and also to support my org, and guys, that is not good, very disrespectful.

It was a very fun week, the food booths, the different org booths. Also, being with my new found friends, and my old friends and org-mates made my week a great one. :)

But today marks the end of my Frosh Week since I will not go to school tomorrow. :( And next week is another battle with hell! I can sense a great yet hectic term!

GOODLUCK TO ALL MAPUANS! :D 

I also would like to take this opportunity again to invite CE EnSE CEM GEO and GSE frosh and upper class men to join CE-EnSE Thinkers! For more info bout our org, visit our tambayan @the benches near the admission. :)

Do we really have to do “it”??

I know I am not the most conservative guy you know. It is very normal for me to explore and venture new experiences to make myself more knowledgeable of things. 

This is a rant. I can’t sleep because this thought kills my mind slowly and painfully. 

Recently, I have discovered that a friend of mine used to be a “friend with benefit” (if you know what I mean) with another girl, whom he refused to identify. At first, I was very shocked. Seeing him as a great friend and man of discipline, never in my life, I imagined this guy to be that before. 

But to be honest, If I ever had the chance to experience having a “friend with benefit”m I would grab the chance. This is a once in a lifetime chance. Even though it’s just nothing but sex, why not? haha. Basta, sabi nga niya, this thing, this happens, and there’s nothing wrong about it as long as you become alert and ready to face the possible consequences you may encounter.

Pero, I don’t know why I look at it as a bad thing, parang I will never look at that person the same again. I know I am just over reacting pero di ko alam kung bakit nagreact ako ng ganito.

Then a question popped into my mind, “I am really entitled to do this?”. Am I obligated to experience this sacred thing to a person whom I have no feelings but sexual attraction? My mind says, “Why not? It’s an experience worth trying for!” but my heart says, “You know, this is something that you should not do with a person whom you don’t love.” 

Basta, naguguluhan utak ko. Hindi ko pwedeng sabihin na, “Pare wag mo nang ulitin yan masama yan” kasi I myself, admit that I will do that if given the chance. Basta ito ang first time na nandiri ako about sa usapang sex. Yung bumalik ang childish mind ko. 

Hindi kasi mawala sa isipan ko ang thought. Parang napapaisip ako kung tama ba ang ginawa niya, normal ba yun? at worse, my mind is a scumbag by letting me imagine what they were doing back then, that is the most gross part of tonight’s misery. Siguro normal nga yun, well, baka para sa kanya, habulin nga naman siya ng babae.  Eh ako itong nung umulan ata ng sex appeal asa loob ako ng bahay kumakain… 

Mangyayari din ba sa akin yun? Kelan? Iyan din ang nagpaisip sa akin. Again, di ko talga alam kung tumatanggi ako o hindi sa bagay na yan. Is that a manifestation of my manliness? Does that define me as a “Tunay na lalake”? Pag ba nangyari sakin yan, ano ang after effect? Basta.

Then I thought, siguro mahirap mangyari sakin to kasi first of all, mahiyain ako pagdating sa babae, di ako marunong makipagflirt. Pangalawa, I am one of the ugly guys, basta, wala akong tiwala sa sarili ko pagdating sa looks ko. SAbi nila gwapo daw ako pag pumayat, well, di ko pa naman nattry. haha. 

Pero if given the chance, will I do it? Will I? Yes. Will that impose something about me? No. Will it be awkward after? Yes. Will I enjoy it? Yes. Will I regret it? I don’t know, maybe yes.

Basta magulo. Ganyan ang naiisip ko.

I want to experience “it” with someone. Okay. That’s it. I want to experience this, I want to explore. But will it happen? again, I don’t know kung may babae mang papatol sakin sa kapangitan at taba kong ito. I want to feel the feeling. This may seem bad or very unethical or a sin, but I myself believe that there is nothing wrong in doing this as long as you are ready for the consequences. Again, gusto kong ma-experience ito.

To everyone who can read this, please be open-minded.  

DOWN

I always say to myself that I am blessed because I am on my way to success in life. I always ignore negative vibes but they seem to multiply so fast that each day of my life, it gets harder and harder to beat them. 

I don’t get it why some people want to see me fail in life. Why can’t they leave me alone? Sorry dude if you treat it as a joke, but sometimes you’re getting out of the line. 

Every time someone pulls me down, I always feel disappointed about myself and how I wish I was dead because the world would be a better place without me. The “achievements” I made are worthless.

Bakit lagi na lang walang kwenta ang mga ginagawa ko? Am I really that disappointing? Oo na di ako magaling magBasketball. Oo na di ako marunong magDoTA. Oo na matatakutin ako. Oo na taga-Mapua lang ako taga LaSalle ka. BOOM! ANG GALING MO!! DIYOS KA NA! Tang ina pare, please wag mo namang imudmod sa mukha ko. 

Bakit ba ang hirap i-notice ng mga ACHIEVEMENTS ko sa buhay? Why do we have to focus on things that I am bad at? 

Kung makaasta ka parang ang talino mo.  Sometimes I just let you do this because I pity your life. You life is a mess. You just don’t admit it because you know it fucking hurts. You try to divert the attention to me so that your shits will be unnoticed.

Kung iisipin mo rin akala mo ang bait mo eh no. Where in fact ang laki mong Douche Bag. You feel superior. Akala mo lahat ng tao mapapasunod mo. You brag that you’re a chick magnet, that girls love your rock hard abs. Pfft. Pati utak mo rock hard. Walang Laman. You feel so smart, eh nakailang board exam ka na bagsak ka pa rin. You always say, you’re going to change, I don’t see any changes.

Thank you for ruining my night. 

*This is a rant. I have to let these thoughts go. Or else I can kill.*

Guisee…

Hey, I think we should not encourage incoming/possible frosh students to not study in Mapua. If the main reason is all about the Maximum Residency blah blah blah. Again, EVERY SCHOOL in the Philippines is using this law. (My sister, who is studying in UP, said that in UPLB, The maximum residency of a student taking up a 5 year course, is 7 and a half years.) And, AGAIN, Common Sense na lang po, Hindi naman talaga pwede na mag 10 years ka sa course mo kahit saang school ka pumasok. (Except for those who are financially incapable and has to stop for some terms.)

Also if the reason is, the HARD Subjects, Engineering, in general is DEFINITELY HARD. And what may be hard for you may not be hard for the student. :) And for the frosh, if you really love Engineering, and Math, then you will have no Hard time studying in Mapua. :)

And also, WE should promote our school. The name of our school is on our hands, if we continue to destroy it, then no wonder, one day we will wake up, not as Mapuans, but MALAYANS. And we don’t want that to happen.

:D

WHHUUUTTT??

Di ko talaga alam kung bakit andaming Mapuans na nabigla sa bagong Resolution ng MIT. Common Sense naman na Hindi ka talaga pwedeng magtagal sa course mo. Eh talaga naman na hindi ka pwedeng mag-10 years sa school.  Kahit saang school ka naman mag-aral eh ganun ang mangyayari sayo. Just Sayiinn.. >.<